Why do you still use the cane?

There is atrophy in my brain that may have been caused by an undetected stroke, untreated high blood pressure or various other causes. The damage that has been done cannot be undone.

Aren’t you going get better?

Not better, but I am learning to adjust in different areas and situations. We are taking steps to hopefully prevent further atrophy.

But why the cane?

Balance is a problem because my nerves and muscle are not communicating.  My lower body is the most affected.  This makes it challenging to rise from a sitting position.  Also, I can be walking along and start veer to the left or the right.  I can be standing still and suddenly falling backwards. That’s why when we are praying you will always see me holding onto something or someone.  Thus the cane to prevent future falls –  per the neurosurgeon.   However, I do not use the cane in the house or familiar areas such as the Sunday school classroom even though that has lead to some scary moments.

How are you handling this season of life?

As they say, that’s a great question.  I talk to God a lot more and the Scriptures always give me words of hope and encouragement.  This is not to say that every day is an easy day.

Just like last night at Ladies Bible Study, I lost it at the end when it was time to sing.  What song was it?  It Is Well With My Soul.  Well, at that moment, those words were hard to sing while I watched everyone easily get up and sing and I struggled to stand.  No pity party here or why me, just honesty.  At that moment, singing that song, I realized how I long to be mobile again.  In that moment of weakness, I reached out to Paulette, who is always there to hold me up in more ways than one and I thank God for her.

But I know, the best part is yet to come.  Someday I will have a new body and be mobile again.  No aches, no pains and no limits.  I am looking forward to that.

2 Corinthians 5:1   New Living Translation (NLT) 

5 For we know that when this earthly tent we live in is taken down (that is, when we die and leave this earthly body), we will have a house in heaven, an eternal body made for us by God himself and not by human hands.

Psalm 94:19   New Living Translation (NLT)

19 When doubts filled my mind,
Your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.